Dark Passenger

I am
at my mother's office
because I drove all the way here
so I didn't have to be alone
because when
I am alone
I tend to
forget things like
homework and food
and little pleasures sometimes
so I try
not to be alone
because it hurts
to be unable to help the people
that matter most
and it hurts
to know that I am hurting them
because I hurt

When every soul cries out in spitting, repugnant disorder
And every living thing in the universe shrivels into forsaken mites and muscles
And every piece of art fragments and recesses into swallowing darkness
And every Big Brother is watching
And every shiver that prickles and swims under your skin raises a zigzag array of goosebumps
And every clock just ticks and tocks and ticks
And everyone knows you're not there
And every rhythm repeats the same resounding, thudding drumbeat
And every drop of rain cascades into crevices that don't exist
And every sneaky businessman walks down the halls with a sneaky little smirk
And every pretty face bares fangs of the darkest silver when your back is turned
And every fiery abandonment lunges its crescent tongues at you
And every chaotic shriek sends shrapnel into your ears
You know insanity.


You know me.
You know everything about me, don't you?

You know every
Detail of my serene face
Subtle nuance of my twisted grin

You know the very
Breadth of my influence
Prowess of my invasive stare

I am your
White knight
Dark passenger
Subservient villain

I am the
Cheese to your macaroni
Syringe to your drug
Lacy edge to your flower

I am the
Fingernail decorated with blue
One that stands out
One that draws your attention

You know that I am
Everything you could ever want
The disease that wrecks and throws your quiet mind

Yes, you know me.
You know me very well.

You know my name.
You know my name is
Depression
Solitude
Misery
Void